Life is feeling a little bland.
I'm restless, itching to have something big on my plate that will turn my whole world upside down and right side up again, everyday, because it excites me so much.
I'm feeling useless; my job is not engaging and I'm in front of a computer all day, feeling like I'm wasting my time and my life. I don't know what to do.
I want to write consistently, but it's just not working. I don't have space, I don't have a good time in my day. I don't even read anymore; the desire is not there. That's not me, though. I feel like I'm making excuses for the life I'm living. I just wish that I was doing something with my day that meant something to me.
I do have a desire to create--movies, art, gifts, photographs, meals, arrangements of flowers, ANYTHING. Too much though. I can't buckle down and focus on one solid thing.
I need to take a trip and gain some international inspiration.
I want to pick up a paintbrush again.
I want to have time to sit in a park and people watch.
I want to go to the symphony.
I want to live an artful life, and I don't know if I'm doing so.
I need to focus on my faith.
I'm not bent on being whiny or negative or unappreciative of the blessed life I live. I'm just trying to figure shit out so I can shine my brightest. And toast every day with a glass of champagne (figuratively).
3 comments :
i would do any of those things with you. can we go see a symphony? and i have a ton of recipes i want to try. just say the word.
Only, don't quit your job. Unemployment feels like swimming with sharks at the moment.
But do live. And write. And make time for whimsy.
Here:
Read this:
http://laveedoonfee.blogspot.com/2008/03/illustrated-biography-of-3-27.html
And then read this:
http://laveedoonfee.blogspot.com/2008/03/life-here.html
I hope that helps a titchy bit, lovey dove.
why don't you be an english assistant in europe? You just described my life for the past 8 months and I don't want to come back!! I am looking at doing it again or finding another job for next year. Come with me.
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